Since Victoria will be having her heart surgery this week or next, we decided to have our church family pray for her tonight. I showed up with Victoria right as the service began and we slipped in the back, Mark met me in the back after he baptised a few people (He’s a pastor at our church.).
As Mark and I stood backstage with Victoria, my heart pounded and my hands shook. The stage I’d sung on for more than 10 years was frightening to me all of a sudden. It was because I knew I’d cry when I walked out and saw my sweet church family looking back at me and Mark. I knew I’d see faces of love and heartache, fear and faith … the same things that people saw when looking up at me up on that stage. I knew I’d be overcome and cry. I did. And, that’s okay
Our pastor prayed the sweetest prayer for Victoria. All of the pastors on staff at our church gathered around us to pray for her and for us. They all lifted us up to the throne of our Almighty God asking for His will in Victoria’s life. They prayed for healing in her heart and for the Lord to guide the hands of the surgeons while operating on her tiny body. Our pastor prayed for Mark and me knowing that letting Victoria go back for surgery would be so hard. It was such a sweet time with my church family, even though it was brief. After our time of prayer, I immediately left and brought Victoria back home.
And, then, I wouldn’t be human if I didn’t feel fear about the “what if’s.” “What if” something goes wrong during the surgery? “What if” she doesn’t make it? I can’t imagine how I’d handle that. I know it’s been told to me that this is a “routine” surgery at UAB, but we all know that there are always risks with any kind of surgery … especially, open-heart surgery.
I wondered what she will look like after surgery. It will be equally hard to see her afterwards because my heart will ache that she has endured so much. After all, her mom and dad drove her to the hospital that would inflict so much pain on her body. But, we know that it’s for her good. We know that with this repair she will be much better.
I, again, learn something from my little one’s life. God reminds me simply, that what seems so painful to me in this moment is for my good. The repair I need in my life and heart is being done and He is healing what I didn’t even know was broken. After this is all over, I’ll be much better, too.
No matter what happens in the next two weeks or the rest of my life … blessed be the name of the Lord!
What a precious time! I’m so glad that you guys were able to have that time together with your church family. Nothing like seeing those you love surround you with the joint purpose of lifting you up to heaven.
I love you!
Shana
You guys have been and will continue to be on our minds and hearts. We love you so much and your friendship means the world to us.
Last night was so special and we are praying that the Lord will put his arms around you and Mark and give you the strength that you need to let her go and Trust God when that time comes. God is watching over Victoria and I believe he is going to do something very special in her life. She has already touched so many lives.
We love you and if we can do ANYTHING for you guys let us know.
Bryan and Andrea